I was reminded in a blog post by Jan Allsopp recently about the idea that there are two roles people play in life: participants and audience. When I’ve been active in my addictions, I have no energy for life, no enthusiasm for participating. Oh, I get stuff done. I’m too responsible not to. But I’m not really in the game, not in what Brené Brown calls the Arena of Life.
When I’m in recovery, I am so glad to be a participant. I engage in what I’m doing. I think more clearly, I speak more eloquently. I am in it, not watching it. I am experiencing it, not dreading it. I spent a lot of years in the audience. I don’t want to do that anymore.
Where are you in the participant/audience conversation?