I didn’t think I had a problem with procrastination. Doing things at the last minute made me so anxious that I got used to doing everything early. But I read a definition recently about procrastination as putting off living, and I realized that has been and still is me some of the time. Why? Because from time to time, I’m still acting out my addiction to overeating, and nothing encourages us to put off living our true and real lives like addiction.
Overeaters like me eat when we don’t want the reality we have. Maybe it’s boredom, maybe it’s restlessness, maybe it’s loneliness, maybe it’s anger. Something in our reality isn’t the way we want it to be and so we use food to escape. We aren’t always conscious that that’s what we’re doing. In fact, not being conscious is the whole point of self-medicating with food. But now I see that when I do that, I’m putting off my life, rather than fully living it. And I don’t want that. I don’t want to put off my life. I want to live it fully and consciously.
What might change for you if you stopped using food to put off your life?